"We should duel sometime." - Joey Wheeler (Emotive's ALJ)

[Emotive]

I found myself listening to Yugioh - Music to Duel By again as I'm playing Yugioh Nightmare Troubadour on my DSi. lol I don't know why I'm always so indecisive with my avy/sig set. I really do need to finish watching it though. I don't remember Waking the Dragons at all, or much of anything after Battle City. Memory that doesn't cooperate is seriously frustrating.

[Emotive]

I might be going to sleep early though, but it depends on if mom wants to or not. Being up by myself usually doesn't turn out well, so it might be an ealry night tonight. Tomorrow I'll most likely start up Yugioh again.

[Emotive]

I think I'll actually try to stay up late tonight just to roll the dice and see if I'll be ok. The worst that could happen is the voices might get frustrating, but I've got sleeping pills so I don't see why I shouldn't really. I want to watch Yugioh so bad right now. lol

[Emotive]

Hmm... I think I might be too nostalgic. lol I can't find a Yugioh group on facebook about the Duel Monsters series and I'm probably unrealistically disappointed. Well... I mean, I guess I could just keep playing my games. Maybe Duel Links will start working for this device again. I hope it does. Eh, it's seemed like I've been living in my own time capsule really, stuck at home for al lthese years. So, I don't know, I'll just keep doing what I know.

[Emotive]

Time to try to sleep. I'm not confident that staying up would be wise. See you all tomorrow at some point. Stay safe, and take care until next time. The Sandman cometh, hopefully. lol IF I can't sleep I might just stay up like usually happens when I can't sleep. We'll see. G'night though all'ya.

[Emotive]

We got a reverse 911 call about optional evacuations for our town. Apparently a wildfire is closeby, and it's really windy where it is. If there's a mandatory evacuation then we'll be leaving our home. But I hope our home will still be here if we do have to leave. I know my spirit would be crushed if we lost our home to a wildfire. Just wanted to give a heads up though. Just woke up and heard that. Not the best day so far, that's for sure.

[Emotive]

Sorry I went offline for so long. We had to evacuate, and I wasn't anticipating a problem with the hotel's wifi. It really didn't like the Chrome OS. lol Wouldn't work for my computer at all. I'm back though, and we're back home.

[Emotive]

I think I'll just sleep. Mom and dad are running an errand, so might be the perfect time.

[Emotive]

Added some games, tv series, movies, and bands to my favorites list in the intro post.

[Emotive]

Oh, and I couldn't get to sleep... thinking of foregoing it tonight honestly.

[Emotive]

Ugh... I swear, it feels like something in me's just snapped or broken. I can't calm down, I've got way too much apathy right now and honestly I'm itching to get myself into some kind of fight. I think, after 17 long years, I might've finally broken... Whether mom and dad put me in a 72-hour psych hold... somewhere... or not is starting to be an inevitability really. Something just doesn't feel right. It feels like my paranoia might actually be justifiable this time. Y'know what they say: just because you're paranoid doesn't mean someone isn't after you.

[Emotive]

I've been thinking about X (the movie, I haven't seen the series yet) lately and I still need to re-watch it, but I always thought Fuma's fate was more or less forced on him, since once Kamui chose to fight for the Dragon of Heaven is when Fuma's personality shifted to... what it turned into. I thought it was sad, tragic even, that he didn't choose to be like that, it was chosen for him. I know what he did, it was such a shock that it's actually burned into my memory, but it's still tragic. Definitely one of the darker anime my Big Sis' got me, but she did get me X the movie for a present, but I can't remember if it was a birthday or Christmas present. Ghost in the Shell was a Christmas present because she consulted mom before getting it for me since I was a young teenager at the time. X was fascinating, but also horrifying at times. One of the treasured anime that I remember my Big Sis' getting for me.

So, the question I have, for anyone deciding to read all of this, is do you subscribe to destiny being a major part of life? Or do you think we make our own fate? I'm undecided... so far anyway, but it does seem like there's no changing destiny no matter how much you rail against it. Or at least that's just what it seems like to me, from my perception. How about you?

[Emotive]

Just started watching X the movie. I must've forgotten the intro, it's a lot more graphic than I thought I remembered.

[Emotive]

Actually spent probably 15 or 20 minutes looking for it. lol I found it, along with a few other anime I'd thought I'd lost forever. BUT! Time for dinner now. lol brb

[Emotive]

Ok, a few sloppy joes and tater tots later and it's time to restart X. lol