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[melanch0lic]

1) yes, some people don't want to socialize sometimes
2) you're also just anxious

It can happen in the middle of a conversation and it takes a rare level of trust and familiarity to be able to say I want to go be alone now. That's usually impossible. I think the only people I could say that to on AL are Naoki because I've known her for years and lolin because she super understands shit like that. With everyone else, you just kinda avoid it or make up an excuse so that you can get out of being social and go recharge. Introvert problems.
And then there's anxious people that see this and start thinking it's a problem with them or the relationship, and that reaction makes it stressful on both sides. Chill.

I am genuinely trying to chill, but I've tried so hard to socialise with the person in question and all I get are one-word replies so hopefully you can see why I'm a little upset right now :'c I need to remember that not everyone is sociable like I try to be, but it hurts when I put a certain level of effort into a conversation and the replies I receive are far-from what I was hoping for - I get you though, not everyone wants to talk but I'm seriously close to stopping conversations with certain people as I've tried and tried with these people to be friendly but no, not anymore... However these changes I'll be implementing will upset me as I did at one point want to get along with everyone on this forum, but the amount of people who genuinely dislike me is quite extensive which surprises me as I've done is be as friendly as possible, I've never insulted anyone etc, but I know fora fact that there are a group of individuals here who dislike me (which includes 1 staff member) and report me every time I do or say things that they don't like - that might be my paranoia talking, but I wish whoever had a problem with me would just speak up so we can resolve any issues that are getting in the way of us being friends at least

[melanch0lic]

i hope ur doing ok today

You need to PM me sometime so we could chat some moar :3

[Momogari]

1) yes, some people don't want to socialize sometimes
2) you're also just anxious

It can happen in the middle of a conversation and it takes a rare level of trust and familiarity to be able to say I want to go be alone now. That's usually impossible. I think the only people I could say that to on AL are Naoki because I've known her for years and lolin because she super understands shit like that. With everyone else, you just kinda avoid it or make up an excuse so that you can get out of being social and go recharge. Introvert problems.
And then there's anxious people that see this and start thinking it's a problem with them or the relationship, and that reaction makes it stressful on both sides. Chill.

I am genuinely trying to chill, but I've tried so hard to socialise with the person in question and all I get are one-word replies so hopefully you can see why I'm a little upset right now :'c I need to remember that not everyone is sociable like I try to be, but it hurts when I put a certain level of effort into a conversation and the replies I receive are far-from what I was hoping for - I get you though, not everyone wants to talk but I'm seriously close to stopping conversations with certain people as I've tried and tried with these people to be friendly but no, not anymore... However these changes I'll be implementing will upset me as I did at one point want to get along with everyone on this forum, but the amount of people who genuinely dislike me is quite extensive which surprises me as I've done is be as friendly as possible, I've never insulted anyone etc, but I know fora fact that there are a group of individuals here who dislike me (which includes 1 staff member) and report me every time I do or say things that they don't like - that might be my paranoia talking, but I wish whoever had a problem with me would just speak up so we can resolve any issues that are getting in the way of us being friends at least

Who the fuck causes drama like this. You should tell me who they are. I won't do anything, especially since I probably have zero interest in these people already, but I can roll my eyes in their general direction.

Also staff means nothing here. At times it's like half the population is staff. Everyone who has a high enough post count is staff at some point, and if they're new, they put in effort to get a quota until they no longer see the point and for most people it ends up in them drifting away from AL and the next person who has x posts per week gets picked up. There's practically no other criteria. And that's how AL drives away most of its active posters, by attempting to load them with a sense of responsibility to achieve targets that nobody can care about for more than 6 months. Since staff has super high turnover, except for a few people, you can just think of most of them as just randos that were given a carrot-on-a-string. Looking at the index page...I see one name I tend to roll my eyes at often. I've never spoken to him because it's always been painfully clear to me how immature he is so I've never had any interest. (I will say, to stop the assumptions that could affect me, that said person has never been admin) If you said this was him, I would not be the slightest bit surprised. Granted, a lot of these names I haven't spoken to either. It's not like I'm a social person to begin with.

And not that I wasn't a brat at some point. Thankfully not many are around to remember me from 2007.

Also, of course there's the case that some people don't like you and no matter how hard you try you're not gonna get them to, so it's not like sunk ships ain't a thing and when you really like someone in that boat, it sucks.

[melanch0lic]

Who the fuck causes drama like this. You should tell me who they are. I won't do anything, especially since I probably have zero interest in these people already, but I can roll my eyes in their general direction.

Also staff means nothing here. At times it's like half the population is staff. Everyone who has a high enough post count is staff at some point, and if they're new, they put in effort to get a quota until they no longer see the point and for most people it ends up in them drifting away from AL and the next person who has x posts per week gets picked up. There's practically no other criteria. And that's how AL drives away most of its active posters, by attempting to load them with a sense of responsibility to achieve targets that nobody can care about for more than 6 months. Since staff has super high turnover, except for a few people, you can just think of most of them as just randos that were given a carrot-on-a-string. Looking at the index page...I see one name I tend to roll my eyes at often. I've never spoken to him because it's always been painfully clear to me how immature he is so I've never had any interest. (I will say, to stop the assumptions that could affect me, that said person has never been admin) If you said this was him, I would not be the slightest bit surprised. Granted, a lot of these names I haven't spoken to either. It's not like I'm a social person to begin with.

And not that I wasn't a brat at some point. Thankfully not many are around to remember me from 2007.

Also, of course there's the case that some people don't like you and no matter how hard you try you're not gonna get them to, so it's not like sunk ships ain't a thing and when you really like someone in that boat, it sucks.

I think we should discuss this via PM as I don't want to throw names all over the place in case my assumptions are incorrect - drop me a message ASAP. my favourite Canadian (I think you're Canadian, anyways) :3!

[Akane Mayu]

sry to hear things have been going rough for u

[melanch0lic]

how are you doing today if i may ask

i'm all good thank you :3

sry to hear things have been going rough for u

Thank you @Akane Mayu, means a lot! How has your mental health been recently? You too can also PM me whenever you need to chat or whenever you need someone to rant to, but that's completely up to you! :3

[Akane Mayu]

how are you doing today if i may ask

i'm all good thank you :3

sry to hear things have been going rough for u

Thank you @Akane Mayu, means a lot! How has your mental health been recently? You too can also PM me whenever you need to chat or whenever you need someone to rant to, but that's completely up to you! :3

tks i appreceate that

and im doing okay at the moment

[melanch0lic]

tks i appreceate that

and im doing okay at the moment

No need to thank me, that's what I'm here for :3! And that's great to hear btw, let's hope your good mood continues as it's nice to feel happy for once, you know?

As for me, it's been a testing few days with my apparent insomnia (once again), difficult people at work and the realisation that I don't have friends (or people I would class as friends, anyways) IRL as my old best friend from my uni years has bailed on visiting me 4 times in a row now, and every time he does it it feels like a knife in the back D: It's such a shame as it's been years since we've seen each other, but what can you do, I don't personally think that just being honest requires any kind of effort whatsoever, but (some) people are lazy and ungrateful (not anyone from the forums, I like most of you :3!) I just need a break away from everything, if I didn't have a dog I'd up and leave to go somewhere remote/rural to live but alas... ;__;

[Akane Mayu]

tks i appreceate that

and im doing okay at the moment

No need to thank me, that's what I'm here for :3! And that's great to hear btw, let's hope your good mood continues as it's nice to feel happy for once, you know?

As for me, it's been a testing few days with my apparent insomnia (once again), difficult people at work and the realisation that I don't have friends (or people I would class as friends, anyways) IRL as my old best friend from my uni years has bailed on visiting me 4 times in a row now, and every time he does it it feels like a knife in the back D: It's such a shame as it's been years since we've seen each other, but what can you do, I don't personally think that just being honest requires any kind of effort whatsoever, but (some) people are lazy and ungrateful (not anyone from the forums, I like most of you :3!) I just need a break away from everything, if I didn't have a dog I'd up and leave to go somewhere remote/rural to live but alas... ;__;

i hope things get better for u

[melanch0lic]

tks i appreceate that

and im doing okay at the moment

No need to thank me, that's what I'm here for :3! And that's great to hear btw, let's hope your good mood continues as it's nice to feel happy for once, you know?

As for me, it's been a testing few days with my apparent insomnia (once again), difficult people at work and the realisation that I don't have friends (or people I would class as friends, anyways) IRL as my old best friend from my uni years has bailed on visiting me 4 times in a row now, and every time he does it it feels like a knife in the back D: It's such a shame as it's been years since we've seen each other, but what can you do, I don't personally think that just being honest requires any kind of effort whatsoever, but (some) people are lazy and ungrateful (not anyone from the forums, I like most of you :3!) I just need a break away from everything, if I didn't have a dog I'd up and leave to go somewhere remote/rural to live but alas... ;__;

i hope things get better for u

ty

[Akane Mayu]

your wellcome

whatca doing at the moment =]

[Momogari]

tks i appreceate that

and im doing okay at the moment

No need to thank me, that's what I'm here for :3! And that's great to hear btw, let's hope your good mood continues as it's nice to feel happy for once, you know?

As for me, it's been a testing few days with my apparent insomnia (once again), difficult people at work and the realisation that I don't have friends (or people I would class as friends, anyways) IRL as my old best friend from my uni years has bailed on visiting me 4 times in a row now, and every time he does it it feels like a knife in the back D: It's such a shame as it's been years since we've seen each other, but what can you do, I don't personally think that just being honest requires any kind of effort whatsoever, but (some) people are lazy and ungrateful (not anyone from the forums, I like most of you :3!) I just need a break away from everything, if I didn't have a dog I'd up and leave to go somewhere remote/rural to live but alas... ;__;

Indeed, dogs would oh so suffer the countryside.

[melanch0lic]

how was ur day

so sorry for not replying sooner, i completely forgot D:! but anyways, my day was pretty chill; work was nice and quiet plus i've re-stocked some more American breakfast cereals to enjoy so yeah, i'm relaxed which is a really lovely feeling :3! how has your day been?

your wellcome

whatca doing at the moment =]

relaxing at the moment whilst watching Lucky Charms! i am in love with your signature image, it's almost-lewd which you may know that i love, very hot indeed X3

tks i appreceate that

and im doing okay at the moment

No need to thank me, that's what I'm here for :3! And that's great to hear btw, let's hope your good mood continues as it's nice to feel happy for once, you know?

As for me, it's been a testing few days with my apparent insomnia (once again), difficult people at work and the realisation that I don't have friends (or people I would class as friends, anyways) IRL as my old best friend from my uni years has bailed on visiting me 4 times in a row now, and every time he does it it feels like a knife in the back D: It's such a shame as it's been years since we've seen each other, but what can you do, I don't personally think that just being honest requires any kind of effort whatsoever, but (some) people are lazy and ungrateful (not anyone from the forums, I like most of you :3!) I just need a break away from everything, if I didn't have a dog I'd up and leave to go somewhere remote/rural to live but alas... ;__;

Indeed, dogs would oh so suffer the countryside.

hello @Momogari-chan! how are you? :3

[Momogari]

Kinda hot atm but ok
how are you?

[melanch0lic]

Kinda hot atm but ok
how are you?

i'm inclined to agree with you in regards to you being kinda hot, but i'm super-generous so i often send compliments like that (if you haven't already noticed) !

i'm great, thank you for asking! feeling nicely relaxed with some random Family Guy episodes playing in the background <3 how as your day been so far?