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"I want to remember her, and everything else." - Kohaku (Emotive's ALJ)
Paranoia is infecting my thoughts again. It keeps happening a little earlier than the days before, but I really am losing my endurance for when it does. I don't know what I'll do, ranting and raving seems to be all I'll end up almost inevitably doing. Although I did actually yell pretty loud today, for a number of hours... I thought I heard mom talking to police upstairs, but I hear a lot of things that can actually be chalked up to convincing hallucinations, so my perception and senses are not the most reliable when it comes to what I think I hear going on upstairs from downstairs. Historically the mistakes I've made thinking what I've heard actually happened didn't really add up to anything, just purely hallucinations.
"I want to remember her, and everything else." - Kohaku (Emotive's ALJ)
Listening to Three Days Grace tonight. I'll be listening to more Apartment 26 songs though to see if I like more than Basic Breakdown and Backwards.
"I want to remember her, and everything else." - Kohaku (Emotive's ALJ)
Yeah, that's true. But the music I listen to seems to make my moods worse whenever I get in that sour kind of buzzkill mood, so I should really try to listen to stuff like U2 or maybe even Fireflight. I love both of those bands so much it's crazy, but then again it could be argued that I'm crazy for many different reasons. lol
How have you been?
"I want to remember her, and everything else." - Kohaku (Emotive's ALJ)
I've been better. But, apparently I've also been a lot worse. There were a few times last week or the weekend where I really lost it and kind of got a little too loud. I could've sworn mom and dad were saying things, but they were outside. I kept hearing the door so that was actually confusing. I'm better today though, but not great. What do you mean by who'd listen though?
"I want to remember her, and everything else." - Kohaku (Emotive's ALJ)
Sorry, I'm unfortunately not quick to catch on. I miss a lot of things that should be obvious too, which I really don't know why that is. I wish it wasn't that way though... but we can only do so much with the hands we're dealt I guess. I was better at the beginning of the day, but it doesn't take long for paranoia to seep into my thoughts.
"I want to remember her, and everything else." - Kohaku (Emotive's ALJ)
Wondering what I should do next... go to sleep for the night... don't know. Maybe play games, maybe watch something, maybe not... honestly I don't feel like doing much of anything.
"I want to remember her, and everything else." - Kohaku (Emotive's ALJ)
I've been kind of just sitting here watching tv actually with mom. lol I'm more relaxed than I was, that's for sure.
"I want to remember her, and everything else." - Kohaku (Emotive's ALJ)
Also started up my Static-X/Wayne Static playlist in YouTube Music. The first album of his I ever heard and owned was Shadow Zone, but it had some part of a song censored, which I never really knew until my step-brother pointed it out at some point. I'm not sure why though... it didn't say it was censored on the album anywhere. Anyways, just saying I'm listening to my Static-X/Wayne Static playlist. I've always loved his music, even after he passed away it's been music to listen to for practically every situation I find myself in.
"I want to remember her, and everything else." - Kohaku (Emotive's ALJ)
Yeah it is.
Speaking of, I've been getting into a band from my childhood lately that I loved to listen to. Limp Bizkit was awesome when I first heard their stuff, and even now after all this time I still think they sound awesome. Nostalgia to the max.
"I want to remember her, and everything else." - Kohaku (Emotive's ALJ)
Incidentally though, I couldn't sleep so I'm playing Fist of the North Star: Ken's Rage. lol
"I want to remember her, and everything else." - Kohaku (Emotive's ALJ)
It's fun. I've almost got the Platinum Trophy for it too. It's a great game to vent with. lol I don't know if venting is helping or doing more harm than good though... I mean, I could ask but I don't know if anyone would be able to really tell.
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"I want to remember her, and everything else." - Kohaku (Emotive's ALJ)
Ooh congrats on platinum!
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"I want to remember her, and everything else." - Kohaku (Emotive's ALJ)
Thanks. Although I still need to get the 4 or 6 Trophies to get the Platinum. But it's closer than I used to be.Naughty Kitty wrote: ↑12 Jan 2022, 19:49Congrats on the trophy and certainly good for venting lol. Glad your enjoying it then.
I didn't get it yet, just really close. The games that need multiplayer to get Platinum though (like Xenoverse) I'll never be able to get Platinum in though. But, I still need to finish Raoh's Legenda nd Dream modes, Kenshiro's, and Toki's, then I'll have the Platinum. But it's really close.
"I want to remember her, and everything else." - Kohaku (Emotive's ALJ)
Thought I'd reply in here.GraceMellody wrote: ↑12 Jan 2022, 21:28thats so cruel to sayEmotive Syndrome wrote: ↑11 Jan 2022, 22:39Oh ok. By the way, did you ever finish schooling?
Regrettably, I didn't. For many reasons... I just kind of fell through the cracks, plus nobody wanted me at the school I was going to, according to the principal at the time.
Actually, her exact words were that I "wasn't welcome here" at the school, but to me it's what it felt like after hearing that. I'm guessing the principal was a woman because that's what mom told me. If she'd told me at the time I really would've come apart, my misanthropy was bad enough back then without hearing that, so she told me in my adult life. That really seems like something a principal just shouldn't say, no matter how difficult a student is. I mean, I thought they were held to a higher standard.