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it's hard to keep myself afloat.

went to see placebo at the house of blues in dallas last night.

it was lots of fun, and I had forgotten how much I missed going to concerts, except the people around me though. 99% of the people there were minding their own space, there just so happened to be people rubbing on me the entire time, it was really annoying.

turns out the guy must have been high on something, but still that doesn't give him the excuse.

BUT I enjoyed the music at least, and found a new band I like. I'm going to have to find their tours and watch them.
Poppy Jean Crawford is the name of the band.

today was rough.

long story short. a friend of mine from my last job passed away in a car accident. freak car accident. he passed away last Friday. his celebration of life was today at my old job, and everyone shared a bunch of heartwarming stories. his family believed in god, his dad is a pastor, and honestly the way he spoke, made me want to go to church and to love everyone.

my old friend had contagious laughter, loved everyone, was loved by everyone, didn't judge anyone, was the most accepting of anyone that I've ever known. It made me look at myself. Yes I'm not the most friendliest person and I don't have a lot of patience, but after this I have to remind myself to take things day by day, love everyone even if I don't agree with their views, to tolerate, but not be bitchy about things.

I hope that those I have wronged, I'm sorry, I don't have a grudge against you, I really don't. even just because of this? I don't because life is too fucking short in this world.

Love your family, think well upon others, and if you don't. Oh well, that's okay, at least you tried I guess?

God this is hard losing an old friend. Who would have thought that the last time I popped into Roadhouse last time, would be the last time I would see him. Sigh.

Life sucks.

There's not much in the way of condolence I can put your way, having suffered loss myself, words, just lose meaning and the emptiness can't be sated, (would have been my mum's birthday 2 days ago, hence me being a bit quieter). But all I can say is remember them fondly, and live each day. Live for you, if they had a profound effect on you, then they live on with you.
Mortality. We know we are going to punch out, just the where's and when's. Enjoy life, as you say life is too fucking short.
Virtual fist bump and hug.

i agree with all points for sure.

My boyfriend is the same, live for you, if how they lived affected you and what you want to take from that, do it for you and not for them.

I've been having doubts in the relationship and such, and I've had doubts in friendships. Are my friendships really there for me? Do people actually genuinely like me?

Today my boyfriend reassured me, and it is probably the most open that he's been with me the last few weeks, for me to understand that he is here in the long run. Someone who will actually stay and put up with my emotionalness and such.

I just wanted to say I'm sorry for your loss. *hugs*

thank you atem. : )

I also want to say sorry for your loss, as djd said, words might not make you feel any better because grief works in odd ways. BUt still want to let you know that i am sorry cause losing anyone sucks

i am someone who also questions my friendships/relationships a lot, so that part especially got to me
which is why its great to read that your boyfriend was open and reassuring, im sure that was a relief

life is for sure short, so do the best that ya can and enjoy what you can too
you got this noodle

thank you.
i've been questioning about friendships more so cause I felt like I had left roadhouse and no one really spoke to me, they're amongst themselves, kind of cliquey, they'd smile at you ask you how you've been but it was more... like a have to, you're here so yeah I'll acknowledge you but nothing else.

even the girls that I was close with, in a text group with, they barely spoke to me, didn't ask me how I was really. yeah they helped take care of my daughter when I was up making a speech- but sigh. they had their own plans. they had their own things they had to do with one another so I really felt left out and out of the loop.

it was kind of weird that my boyfriend agreed and we were on the same page and reassured me. the last month has been rough with our relationship and it is emotionally, mentally and physically draining. I get to the point to where I feel... anxiety and depression and anger, and all the emotions, they just weigh me down. It's been a lot.

thank you mijoooooo


----- yesterday I ended up cleaning the apartment from top to bottom. it feels nice, and I actually want to be here finally. no more mess. I'm trying to declutter some things. hooray.

I miss connection. I miss group chats with people that I know.
I feel out of the loop on everything. I would like new people to talk to, like ones on this side of the pond...

I love you guys from AL, but most people are from the UK and asleep.

I miss the old days of chatting all night with people and people who are genuine.
being an adult sucks.

Passed my english class. it really kicked my butt and I was getting frustrated with it.
Abby and Theo are in school now, so now I have the opportunity to work when they're not here. I have a day off tomorrow and this week I finally made the amount of money I used to at my old job. It feels nice. I'm glad it's finally starting to look up.

congrats on passing the class!!
also glad to hear your new job is now at the same rate as before
i hope it keeps looking up for ya noodle!

roly poly pell mell tumble bumble

Your title makes me think of this^^

I feel freaking awful I haven't been on here as much.

Work and school has come in full swing again. This time I'm taking 9 credit hours. 6 of them are for the same class, and I'm doing psychology this semester.

It has been officially one year since I've started college-- and I'm proud of the accomplishment!!!! The last time I went I didn't even finish out two semesters. Here I finished two semesters and an extra summer semester. WOOHOO.

I hope you all have been well. Now off to study again.

YOU GOT THIS CLAUDIA