Jesus. You probably could've used some company. \:
Sorry about that, I went to try to take a nap. ^.^;
I'm sorry to hear it though. /: How long did the attack last?
^.^ How's today been for you?
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I'll be back on soon though, they're just kind of putting me through the ringer. That's really the only time I try to nap. Talk to ya soon, Kairi I'm not done though! I'm gonna talk a lot more when I come back!! lol ^.^
*sprints into a glass door on the way!* lol That would hurt so much. XD
I'm gonna go ahead and bookmark the threads though because I'm feeling kind of nappy. >.<
Oh, I can see how that makes sense.
And hyell yeah! Where are they?
Actually I never really understood what life is what you make it meant. It sounds self-explanatory, but it just doesn't click "upstairs". I'd guess at what I thought it meant but that would take half an hour to pry the thought out of the depths. ;.;
It sounds like you're missing out on a happy life. /: Not that I'm one to talk though.
I have no doubts about that. I've also been depressed my whole life, though my antipsychotic seems to help with that in addition to my antidepressant. But yours sounds a lot more involved than mine ever was. I just can't imagine that level of depression mixed with anxiety. We might be similar, but in those similarities lie some of our differences too. You've definitely got it worse than I do. I'm amazed you haven't had attempts on your life... or have you...? You don't need to say, but I just wanted to ask. Personally, I've got clearly protruding and discolored scars on my wrists numbering in the teens, maybe even 20s. Several overdose attempts too. I was a mess. I've never been able to live with it. With one of the slices into my wrist I could see the blood come through the inch or so deep cut, into my arm. It was so weird. I'm not trying to make this a contest, just in case that's what you think I'm doing. I'm just trying to convey that I empathize, not just sympathize.
I know exactly what you mean. People like us seem to always have a crappy hand against a stacked deck. Everyone also tells me that I'm strong for not having totally lost my mind, but it's only a matter of time before I end up dead via suicide or I become so far gone that I'll be unrecognizable. Mentally anyway. So, as far as that goes and things being worse than everyone else seems to think it is, I feel your pain.
Sorry that took so long, they're really jiving at me right now, which is when it's almost impossible to think.
/: I'm sorry to hear about the catch 22. You're one of my friends now, so you might see bouts of overprotective hotheadedness if you get into a disagreement with someone else and I find out. I'm just overprotective of those close to me. ^.^;
I just can't sleep sometimes because "they"(as I've grown to refer to the voices anyway) talk louder than the maximum volume of our main tv upstairs whenever I do try to get some shuteye. It's hard to explain because there's only one tone/"pseudodecibel" and not really anything to compare it to. Especially when they use sounds to channel their voices into my mind. When no one believes they're real then you start to feel crazy. But are you crazy if you're the last sane person on the planet? That's what I say anyway. Even though it sounds familiar like a quote... well it's still what I say too, even if it is a quote.
Anyway, it's because of them talking/"yelling" at me that I can hardly sleep. ;.;
Dayum!! 7 hours difference! Oh, and I'm kind of an insomniac. XDD
It's 7:03am here, what time is it over in Scotland?
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