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Mewski

Where Do I Go?

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This year I saw myself hit the big old three-one. Yes I turned 31 years old and... I still lack any clue on where I am meant to go in life. I know things I want to do and such but I gotta make it happen somehow. Maybe it's due to being poorly for so long and then caring for sick children I just lost my mojo, but I feel the whole "where do I go in life?" feeling again.

One thing I loved doing was events. I found that from starting Alcon all those years ago. And over the years I have been part of various events doing things like photography, interviews, co-hosting and promoting. But one thing I do enjoy is being on stage, I loved doing that but rarely get that chance. I enjoy interviewing people on the stage as well as being part of panels. I've not done a panel in a very long time. This year I had a panel scheduled but sadly I had to cancel due to illness. That really kicked me down as I felt I had let myself down.

I don't know what to do. But not only that but I have this constant fear of whether what I want to do will be beneficial to my family. I have two children that I need to feed, clothe and a house to pay for. If this calling I love so much cannot pay for the basics then what? What should I do?

I'm probably going to use this blog for more serious things going on in my head, my ALJ will be more short and simple, but regularly updated.

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  1. Chlobo's Avatar
    Hope you start to feel better soon. <3

    AL wuvs ya.